Sunday, December 6, 2015

Learing About Myself

After some internal deliberation, I decided to ask out Tattoo girl again. Why not?

I ended up texting her the day after our date (even though leading up to our date our text conversations had been painful to say the least). THE DAY AFTER. What can I say, I was really feeling confident.

I said: "Hey I'm glad we got to have dinner last night, it was a lot of fun. You going to the event tonight?"

It only took me like 45 minutes to craft that bad boy.

So a funny thing happened on our way to our second date. She never texted back. As a rule I usually text a person one more time if they don't respond in a orderly fashion (I call it the benefit of the doubt text). But not if I ask a direct question! Besides I thought that she would probably be at the event any way and we could just talk there. But she wasn't at the event, or at church the next day, and before I knew it, 3 days had passed without a response. Who does this girl think she is?

I just kept assuming she would text me back until so much time passed that it would be awkward if she did finally text you back. Then I started thinking: maybe my text didn't go through. Maybe it was lost in the interwebs or whatever. That happens right? Lost texts are a thing right? Maybe this whole time she has just been sitting around WAITING FOR ME to text her? What if this whole thing is just a hilarious misunderstanding? HAHAHAHAHA

That has to be it. It just makes more sense right? Who wouldn't text back me?

I can just imagine our conversation the next time I run into her. I will tell her and she will think it is so funny. And then I'll point at her and then she'll point at me and it will be a funny cute story we will always look back on.

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Except the problem is I didn't run into her. Before our date she would come to our ward for church, FHE, and all kinds of activities all the time. But afterward I never saw her anymore. If I didn't know any better, I would have guessed that I creeped the freak out of her during our date. But of course that is impossible, so there must just me another hilarious reason why.

Well several weeks later I did run into, at a city wide event that she was in charge of. Is it called "running into" if you are going to an event that you know someone will be at? Anyways, I brought up the whole text thing and I was smiling all ready to laugh. And I'm not going to lie, it wasn't as hilarious as I envisioned it. There wasn't even any pointing! For some reason it was mostly just awkward.

But never mind that, she said she didn't remember getting my text and that her phone asks weird sometimes (see what did I tell you?!?).

So the next day I texted her again. And then I waited.

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She didn't immediately respond so I thought I will give her an hour. Then that passed and I was like, maybe just until the end of the day, and THEN I will just over will it.

Its been weeks and weeks now, still no response. Which is fine. Heck, I never really liked her that much and I always had to talk myself into asking her on a date. It wasn't meant to be.

But on the other hand, it is a little deflating. I mean one of the reasons I asked her out in the first place was because I thought she already liked me. And I seriously thought I killed it on our date. 

Sigh.

Looking back, I haven't exactly had the best win/loss record with girls the last year or so. Maybe I've lost it. Maybe I never had it. Honestly I'm probably just not as cool/funny/attractive/whatever as I thought I was. Kinda sucks.

1 comment:

Elizabeth Downie said...

We've all been there, friend. You'll bounce back!